ANTM: Goodbye Lauren

So who thought that Lauren was going to stay after this italian commerial
episode? As gorgeous as she is, she was just too self-conscious to get it
together. I think if you've been made fun of for your whole life, you can't
undo all that in a few weeks. It's too bad though. I wanted a weird girl
to win.

And since I'm on the subject of ANTM, I think the plus sized girls are at a
disadvantage in the industry. She didn't book as many go-sees because of
her size, and last night's challenge with the italian designer also pointed
to that fact. He was obviously looking for a thin girl, so the plus sized
girl didn't really have a chance there.

I'm not sure if the show is trying to make a point about the industry or if
they don't even realize that she's starting out at a disadvantage. But I'd
like to think they're making a statement about the state of the industry.

And since I was talking about weird girls, I don't understand how Anya is
winning so many of these challenges. She's a very sweet girl, inoffensive
and quite likeable, but I don't see that model quality about her. I don't
really see what those others see, and I wonder if it was something that
doesn't translate over television. I'm wondering if her accent will be a
factor in her actually winning. I am understanding her better, but I'm
wondering if it's because I've heard her speak more, so I'm used to it, or
if she's learned to speak clearer and slower. I won't be offended if she
won though, I think her photos are good. But I still like the way
Katarzjena looks.

What do you think of the contestants? Who do you thnink will go next? Who
do you want to win?

Closet Fears

On the news the other day, we heard that this guy had crawled up into
his attic, walked across to another person's house and entered through
their attic door. Now, I didn't catch if this was an apartment complex
or a condo/townhouse. But ever since hearing that, we've been
wondering if someone was going to suddenly appear in our bedroom
closet. So we have set a sleeping schedule so that we can keep watch
in the evenings.

Since we're talking about the closet, and this is a short entry, I'm
going to talk about how I was afraid of the closet. I know that lots
of children are afraid of the closet. I mean, they wrote a whole
children's move about it. But how many of you were afraid of E.T. and
thought he lived in your closet?

Yeah, I didn't think so.

I used to sleep with the covers over my head because if he couldn't see
me, he couldn't hurt me. It didn't matter if it was a totally hot
summer, I'd seat under those covers to protect myself!

Somewhere along the way, I lost that particular irrational fear only to
pick up a new one. I have an irrational fear of the bathroom inthe
middle of the night. I don't know what I think is in there or what it
will do if it caught me, but I am in and out of there as soon as I
can. And it doesn't matter if I have the lights on or off because the
moment I leave, something is totally going to come out of there that
will grab me.

I can't explain where I got this irrational fear from. I only assume
that something so traumatic happened that I've just blocked it out. Or
I saw a scary movie that involved a scary bathroom. Hell, just the
commercial for that one movie scared the pee out of me. So I'm not
ruling that out either.

Do you have irrational fears? Do you know where they come from? Do
you think I'm weird?